Dear Readers

Dear Readers,
I’ve gotten several e-mails and comments from some of you with gentle, helpful tips and lots of prayers and well-wishes. I really want to thank all of you for that. I’m feeling vulnerable right now because I’ve been catching a good bit of flack from some very well intentioned people for the decision to get induced. It’s been vigorous and patronizing; it assumes that I’m not very smart and that I haven’t done good research. It has come, without exception, from women who have never had children or faced such decisions themselves; nor are they healthcare professionals. My cell phone has rung too much tonight.

I have enjoyed being able to be transparent about our process because, until recently, I never had to make a controversial decision and no one ever attacked me (it’s not like I’ve been smoking and drinking my way through pregnancy); but now that reasonable minds can differ about what the right decision is with regard to my health, my labor experience, and the well-being of this baby, I find myself feeling guarded. I’m clearly hormonal – weepy and short-tempered – but regardless of the reason, I’m finding that my feelings are really hurt by all the fervor dedicated to getting me to do things I don’t feel comfortable doing. Why do people do this? I know and respect these people, and under ordinary circumstances, they are interesting and likeable; so why in this vulnerable time are they so unkind? I really don’t get it. But I’m pretty okay (though still very disappointed) and I’m particularly grateful for all of you who have been so kind to us throughout this amazing, beautiful, sometimes difficult journey, especially in these last few days.

My love and hugs to all of you,
Em

Getting ready

Hi there little one,
We're readying ourselves as best we can tonight. We went to a movie in an effort to distract ourselves and pass the time; your dad and I went for a walk in hopes that it would help you come. But now we've pretty well resigned ourselves to the inevitability that we will get induced tomorrow at 11am and that it's really the best decision. I'm not happy about it and I have not given up on the various homeopathic, herbal, naturalish, etc. remedies; but I'm happy with our decision to have this induction. We're really excited to meet you. Your aunt K is on her way here. Uncle S can't come because he has a job interview in Atlanta, but he'll be here in spirit. Our support network is on board - praying, thinking, sending good vibes - and we will see you soon. I hope this is the right decision and that by the time you meet us, you'll be happy to meet us too.

Love, Mom